Dear Friends,
Once again, our ongoing “conversation” inspires my newest Glimmer on this quiet November day. I hope you are well, safe and cared for. Each of you remain in my prayer as Fall invites our hearts into the deepening darkness that surrounds us. What are we called to as our inner life slows us down?
I received a gift recently, a nuanced encounter with my little-girl-self that I’ve spent a lifetime protecting. The trauma that she survived created deep wounds that influenced my personality, relationships, and talents. She has made herself known to me, and sometimes others, through reactions and behaviors. Since my contemplative path invites deep looks and patient wonderings, I pay attention. Perhaps you can relate to the moments where hidden memories and feelings show up in the midst of daily activities and relationships.
Fortunately, I am committed to regular supervision in my spiritual direction ministry. This is an honest look at what comes up for me as I sit with those I’m accompanying. This professional practice allows me to devote my full attention to my directee, knowing I will later attend to human feelings that may appear. This is where she showed up. In the safe company of my peers, that little one made herself known and I listened to her. She often comes with tears, the story she lived was filled with loss and abandonment. Sometimes, I cry right along with her as I experience the invitation to self-compassion. And lately, I find my capacity to trust her, my self and my loving God has gently increased.
Her name is Hope. She survived these 70 years and, praise God, remains at the core of who I am. She is part of these Glimmers, my ministry and part of my faith journey. Advent begins on Sunday and I’ve asked her to join me in the sacred preparation for Christmas. Each day I will carry her light, as she carries mine, into the mystery of Christ’s arrival. Together, we will face the challenges of life – together, we will reverence the joy of life. Together, we will hope.
peace to you, dear Friends, Lisa